Thursday, September 25, 2008

One Amazing Month

We're here now, just a few hours shy of one month since Yadon's birth.

It's kind of funny how quickly life adapts to change. Suddenly I can't remember life without Ya - - and I can't bear the thought of not having him in it.

We've had a few tough days and nights, but these shall pass.

When I look at my son, I see perfection. His soft brown skin. His little folded ears. Piano fingers and elegant toes. Strong legs and arms. Dark brown curls of hair. He's simply amazing.

When he opens his eyes and looks at me, my heart melts. What might those eyes be seeing? Does he know I'm his mama?

His little coos - earlier than expected - the first method of talking to me. I can't wait until he says his first words. I wonder what they'll be. Will he tell me he loves me times infinity times infinity like Chi does?

His caresses. Are they involuntary like the websites on baby development suggest? I think not. Somehow I know those gentle touches of his fingers are intentional. His reaching out toward me is not an uncontrolled reflex. Those grasping fingers know exactly what they're holding.

Carl Sandburg is quoted as saying
Babies are God's opinion that life should go on.
I'm certain this is true. Yadon has changed our family. Just a month ago it was Chi and I alone. Now we have four in our little family. We're a team. We're united in love. We're blessed to be together.

I don't get much time to dream these days... Maybe I don't need to dream... my awakening is so awesome that I don't need to create fantasy.

I'm always thinking about how perfect my pair is. I have a beautiful, intelligent, selfless, inquisitive, devoted daughter who is well beyond her 5 3/4 years of life. And now I have a handsome son with the world ready and waiting to be discovered and conquered however he chooses.

[Saturday Sept. 20 @ Cox Farms]

1 comment:

Rose and Donnie said...

this is a wonderful post. I esp. love the quotation. Wow.

Well, I am spending the weekend inside again...still sick. I haven't been to visit you or my sister and her new baby since they have been born and I am growing bitter! Thank you for keeping me up to date with your blog. I'm so happy for you! I hope I can kick this sinus infection thing by the end of this weekend. I have been having a lot of swelling lately, my only complaint, so I guess that's not too bad.